Nuestra relacion a sido un sube y baja…
Desde siempre Alejandro q nos pasa? Q te pasa q ya no te encuentro? Me subes woo hoo no puedo estar mas arriba, mas alta, mas cerca al cielo y las estrellas. Siento la brisa dandole a mi cara y me lleno de paz y gozo. Amo, TE AMO.
Carta 2008:
The log of the process of me getting over you! In this log I will be writing especially to you of how Im doing. I probably make no sense but "thats what it is" like my friends from the O Town used to say.
So... Its hard??? But aint everything hard? yes it is! and it has not been any nicer on anyone. OOOOO its like I'm blogging my breakup! How exciting! (This is fresh)
So Her BF, marido at the moment came from VA and she picked him up AT the AIRPORT through Jetblue. He was already a mess, physically, mentally, hurt and pain, vomiting, a whole lotta everything. She picks him up takes him to the hospital and stayed with him the night and day. But hes confused he cant see her! he cant even see himself. tells her to leave trying to be sweet and pollite as possible. but he never saids the truth of what he hears inside that voice that is deeply inside.the one she knows because she knows him.
Day 1 was ok because she was still in shock and tired of working but it had been a good day at her job because she didnt know the news until after she got out.On day1 she saw HER (the other woman NEMESIS) and Gertrudis saw her. They were face to face and someone had to explain. The girl, Gertrudis, turned around and walked; then she stopped because tears were gonna come out and she couldn't leave that room crying like that. So they saw her tears and heard them too. They all talk briefly and he tried to play that he was knocked out sleepy. Until he sat up on his bed and saw them both infront of him. What Would he do???? Mummble? think of what other lie so he saids a lying truth. Nemesis:she's nice too good not saying that u arnt good but i cant keep her out of my mind…Alejandro said but no i luv u's came out. So then she asks about their things! The things they got together and how they;re gonna do? calm voice but hysterical inside.
When she walked in her world fell at her feet she didnt know what to feel. it was like if all named feelings in the jar fell on her. she walked like a zoombie completely in shock. that night she did something chilled with some people, and felt a lil better but that next morning was horribly hard for her to get out of bed. everything seemed soooo hard that day soooo heavy, too much silence and too much speaking. Work was horrible she couldnt work right, she was downnnnnnn. that was until 530pm after that she went to church heard the word (they had a ministry in mind, goals together things they wanted to work on and accomplish; you know Alejandro and her)) and felt peace but confusion. Then she felt bad for him because the enemy keeps stealing from him she also felt confused was every Godly experience that she lived with him were fake???? Too many questions came up.
By now it was raining and she was there interacting with the two big dogs Ares pitbull and Dolce boxer also with Titan the blue. Realizing that those animals are like their children thats the way she felt towards them and thats how they related. How painful bc its not just the person but the animals tooo that really screwed her as the night progress with her girl friend beside her to keep her company she started thinking on a million things like God for 1 she thought about him and all his things and how much she knows him then she understood why he was so significant for her and why she cherished him so much because she felt that she knew him she knew his faults and his craziness his bads always! the good she just knew who he was and thats why in a strange way she didnt feel rage but she felt pain for a friend. she really loved him and considered him however it was in a different way; in a way that out of this world if she could take her glasses and put them on him she would.....
despues de eses viaje se acordo q a ella la dejaron y q cuando tu dejas a alguien por otra persona tu no estas triste y tu no miras esas cosas. Pero por lo menos ya esta tomando unos pasos que la ayuden a llegar a la liberacion. lo unico q la jode es: habra sido verdad o mentira lo de Dios????
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