pero mas q eso esto esta siendo mi terapia pa desahogarme o algo asi. pq lo comparto contigo ALEJANDRO? yo me pregunto lo mismo pero tu eres parte de esto and its because of u. uve become my inspiration to write again y te digo mas siempre me has inspirado a muchas cosas, pero eso son otros 20 pesos.
Que procesito! mejor dicho que procesaso!!!! wow! she never thought she would go through this, she though of a happy ending, she thought of a family, she thought of him as her husband. the one and only, her friend and companion. but... she needed to get that out her head she needs to be strong. she needs to learn that other people are their own people and that she cant obligate anyone. and theres 2 sides to that cause in one she would tell him "u aint going no where and ur staying here cause i dont give a crap" but thats not what it is. she doesnt want to cry to someone for him to love her and she doesnt want to have to spy on her man to see what hes doing. ALL SHE WANTED FROM HIM WAS FOR HIM TO LOVE HER and only her, BC HE WANTED TO, NOT BC SHES MAKING HIM TO.
The same way she was never obligated to love, she chose to love, she chose to love him, she chose to make a life with him, and she chose him, because she wanted him, bc she saw beauty in him, she saw something diferent and special. but she didnt know that that beauty would hurt her, she didnt think that that friendship was rotten she never thought it was a fake! she actually believed in God first and then in him. She thought that what they had was soooo special, nada comun q se consigue por ahi. but now she sees its not special enough.
She dreamed it would be but it only stayed in her dreams. now she wants those dreams she had, to be real and not just dreams. she knows who she is! she is beautiful! ooooh sooo beautiful her face lights up a room. she has freedom: she is she and she's loved for that cause she's not a fake but sooo freaking cool! yes she loves the unusual, the strange and wacky maybe thats why she liked him soo much because he took her on another world or better said she took him to her worlds and he could tag along pq cual de los dos mas locosssss ajajajajajaj! uno en el 296.7 or what ever the # was y ella en su mente super unica. They actually made a great team, a great couple, a great pair. she went along with all his shits bc she could understand their quiet language, they understood their minds, maybe they were so much alike in some thing and not so much alike in others but thats what made it good. if u could only see how much they laughed. in bed the two where awsome.
he brought her to new heights and she wasnt scared of his possessiveness. Poor girl she really LOVEDDDDDD her relationship she was very happy with it. she still thinks about many things that bring a smile to her face but a dissapointment as well.
Where did amber & bock go??? y que de la medalla, o el vino??? all things that he experienced with her. what about the river and jumping from the cliff ajajaj! she really mises that.what do u say about the morning and their little caffeteria hooping which they enjoyed soooo much y era tan divertido? y que de todos las conversaciones. lo MUCHOOO q hablaban, lo mucho q se reian. y no se puede quedar el latigo!!!!! which she at least hopes that that was their spot. she goes back in their memories and what she finds is a heckload of awsome memories that at the same time fuck with her because how did those awsome times lead to this? por estupideces de nenes chiquitos? o por falta de amor, o conveniencia... ella no entiende!
Hoy es dia 6. todos los dias ella siente sus emociones, las siente en su cuerpo y en su mente. pero ella esta ahi bregando. bregando con ella. hes not her kid she cant make him do anything. but she still remembers all the good times in orlando at his house and in orlando at her house. in miami when she went to donate her eggs. what an experience! it was soo much fun, he was sooo nice she was inlove completely with him she saw the one, the one for her, the one she wanted.
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